I can’t hold it but for a few seconds longer, I’m underwater but I know I’m crying. This is fine by me, this way no one will see the tears.
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I could feel the water running, slipping through my fingers, I sat on the edge of the tub and watched as steam rose. From the restroom where I sat I could hear the world outside. The roar of the television (he needs to lower the bass on the surround sound), my husband calling to my kids to go to bed, their small giggles as the echoed down the halls. There’s soreness in my knees and I need relief. For the past few days, this has been a nightly ritual, a brief escape. I set my phone on the counter, I leave it playing music from another time. I lower myself slowly into the crystal clear blue warmth and feel the calm as it washes over me. If I say a prayer at this very moment, could I be cleansed? Am I absolved from the heaviness this guilt has weighing on me? Is that just wishful thinking?…
Many Kind Regards,
Frank St. Martin shares his thoughts on suicide, and how they compare to military "fight or flight" training.